“Suddenly Jesus’ words flashed through Peter’s mind: ‘before the rooster crows, you will deny three times that you even know me.’ And he went away, weeping bitterly.”
Matthew 26:75
Peter remembered.

It was in that moment that Peter came face to face with a harsh reality…

He wasn’t who he thought he was.
He was the opposite.
He discovered inconsistency.

Can you relate? 

There is nothing easy about being confronted with your own brokenness; your own weakness.

Peter was a strong and confident disciple. He had decided early on that Jesus was the Messiah and that he would follow him to whatever end necessary.

However, when time came for “whatever means necessary,” Peter didn’t follow through with his commitment.

We may not know exactly why he denied Jesus, but we are told how it affected him.

Matthew tells us he went away “weeping bitterly.” Have you ever wept bitterly over your own sin? Have you ever wept over your own denial of Jesus?

My heart hurts for Peter in this moment.

Because I’ve experienced life at this level.
I’ve experienced my own sin at this level.
I know what it feels like to want to run away and hide.
I know what it feels like to experience a tsunami of hopelessness that leaves you wondering if life can ever be restored.

I imagine Peter “went away” wondering if Jesus would ever speak to him again. Was his life, as he knew it, over? 


Peter would never be the same.

And in John 21, Jesus restored Peter. Peter is asked three different times by Jesus “do you love me?” There is no doubt that Peter loves Jesus, but Jesus is trying to get Peter to believe again. Jesus is pulling Peter out of the hole of despair and re-assuring him of their relationship.

It’s critical to notice that Jesus is restoring the relationship first. Peter needed to feel the security that comes from knowing you are a child of the King; from knowing that he is beloved. 

The reason I answered, “yes” earlier is because Peter would never be the same…and isn’t that the goal?

The goal is to become more like Christ. Peter was restored by Jesus and ultimately given the mission of leading this young movement in the world.

I know Peter never forgot what happened that day when he denied Jesus three times.

I also know that Peter never forgot the day that Jesus restored him back into fellowship.

It is a hard lesson when we are confronted with our own duplicity.
It was for Peter. It was for me. It will be for you.

But HOLD ON! Don’t give up just yet! God isn’t finished with you! God still has a plan!

If you are sinking, REACH out to someone who can help you. Joy comes in the morning! God’s mercies are new everyday! On the other side of pain is JOY!

Don’t bail. Don’t medicate. Don’t hijack the process.
Remember the promise and go through the process, so that you might experience the payoff.

If you need someone to pray for you send me an email at dtaylor@elevationstlouis.com 

You don’t have to do it alone. You can make it. Believe today that God is ABLE!